Deppression

Why?
Every time even want to say hi...
Every time I Think of going anywhere near her...
Every time i even think of her...

I Always feel Deppressed.
But it's not her fault...
Its mine...
For Being mean to her friend...
And now i spend my time
wallowing in my own tears and grasping to
what reality i have left.
Always hoping she will forgive me...
But i know better then that.

I fucked up and now one of the most important people ever...
Hates me.