Yay!

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No more english for me this year =D
and soon no more SS.
ohh boring Socials.
worst class ever!
meh anyways, back to fooling around.

OWNED!

I totally owned laura in sparring at karate tonight
i was all like
Hyaa! and boom! and kerblang!
so...yeah
yay amazing me XD

Omg! I updated!

Soo
life in general has gotten much better for me now.
(Happy now kyle? NOW STOP BUGGING ME ABOUT BEING SAD)

ellery isnt mad, i'm not moving to shanigan
and i'm really relaxed thanks to the snowboarding
i did this weekend.

Haha! this is so small you cant read it unless you cheat!

IHateMyLifeRightNow

Sooo...
NOTHING is going right for me lately.

1 Ellery isn't talking to me.
2 My love life is causing even more problems then usual.
3 There's a chance I'll have to move to Shanigan Lake.
3.5 Moving there means leaving friends which means more depression.
4 Screwing up in school cause of depression.
5 I'm not sure if I can trust the one person who has saved me from suicide.
6 Feeling ignored lately.
7 Finally, I'm having a hard time believing if i do move, will anyone miss me?

If you ignore all that, I'm having a great day.

Deppression

Why?
Every time even want to say hi...
Every time I Think of going anywhere near her...
Every time i even think of her...

I Always feel Deppressed.
But it's not her fault...
Its mine...
For Being mean to her friend...
And now i spend my time
wallowing in my own tears and grasping to
what reality i have left.
Always hoping she will forgive me...
But i know better then that.

I fucked up and now one of the most important people ever...
Hates me.

I'm a Horrible Person

Talking behinds someones back
Saying cruel things
Being a Ass in general

Fuck Yep, so now i've become what I least wanted to come.
ive become what made me ever even think of suicide in the first place.
Why did i when i know so much about it already?
Oh well, I will forgive myself when my conscience has settled...
It may be awhile

IHateSleep

ARG! i hate sleep so much!
my dreams have just kept getting realer and its scary. Stupid mind trying to scare me.