Lmao

So
for all my most likely non existant readers
I like 3 Girls
Any guesses?
K well there Lauren, my girlfriend and extreamely violent
Caitlin whom makes me smile just seeing her
and Laura, the one i have never even gotten close to before yet something about her sparks interest.

Anyways
now all you invisble readers can feel left out XD

Fuck...

So Deppression Sucks
First I'm dumped on thursday then i find out today that i have like no chance
with the other girl that probably could have cheered me up.
Fuck
now i wish i could have just stuck to liking Laura...
at least She doesnt let me think i actually have a chance with her...

I wonder how long it would take people to notice if i killed myself...
Whatever
even if i tried i doubt i could do it...out of the few who would truly care thats till too much
sadness that would be my fault

DotDotDot...Dude! i Can Spell "Dot" =D

So I'm wondering if i should even have a birthday party
i mean my birthday is in 1 week
and theres a few things
1 no one ever comes to anything i plan
well some people do like laura but thats cause shes amazing
2 its close to spring break so some people may be away
3 i hate organizing parties
even if it is very little work
4 I wouldnt know who to invite

Alright
well...
I'm not gonna make a big deal bout it
but i'm gonna stop hanging out at the amphitheater.
In fact im gonna try to avoid it.

Effin Hell

Fuck.

Woot!

So
Thomas has a Girlfriend! =D
Her name is Caitlin and she is amazing

only bummer is her older sister is still bugging me bout it :(
stupid Kirsten being insane and bugging me.

Yay! Moving!!!

So i am gonna be moving to Brentwood about april 10th!
Edit:
May 28th


so yeah...HURRAY!

OOGA BOOGA!

RAWR! I"M A GIANT KITTY CAT AND I"VE COME TO CLAW YOUR BEST CHAIR AND DESTROY YOUR CURTAINS!

Well...huh...

So yeah
For those of your who know/Care I've given up on Lauren.
And before anyone gets any ideas, NO I DO NOT LIKE ANYONE ELSE.
Geez, just cause i give up on someone doesn't mean i like someone else. Just means i'm a complete idiot, specially since i actually had a chance with her.
Yeah...not that big of a deal.

And
I feel really bad about Ditching Laura last week and now it feels as
though she never wants to hangout with me again...Oh well
I guess i Deserve it.

...
I was gonna say more but I won't.

Yay!

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
No more english for me this year =D
and soon no more SS.
ohh boring Socials.
worst class ever!
meh anyways, back to fooling around.

OWNED!

I totally owned laura in sparring at karate tonight
i was all like
Hyaa! and boom! and kerblang!
so...yeah
yay amazing me XD

Omg! I updated!

Soo
life in general has gotten much better for me now.
(Happy now kyle? NOW STOP BUGGING ME ABOUT BEING SAD)

ellery isnt mad, i'm not moving to shanigan
and i'm really relaxed thanks to the snowboarding
i did this weekend.

Haha! this is so small you cant read it unless you cheat!

IHateMyLifeRightNow

Sooo...
NOTHING is going right for me lately.

1 Ellery isn't talking to me.
2 My love life is causing even more problems then usual.
3 There's a chance I'll have to move to Shanigan Lake.
3.5 Moving there means leaving friends which means more depression.
4 Screwing up in school cause of depression.
5 I'm not sure if I can trust the one person who has saved me from suicide.
6 Feeling ignored lately.
7 Finally, I'm having a hard time believing if i do move, will anyone miss me?

If you ignore all that, I'm having a great day.

Deppression

Why?
Every time even want to say hi...
Every time I Think of going anywhere near her...
Every time i even think of her...

I Always feel Deppressed.
But it's not her fault...
Its mine...
For Being mean to her friend...
And now i spend my time
wallowing in my own tears and grasping to
what reality i have left.
Always hoping she will forgive me...
But i know better then that.

I fucked up and now one of the most important people ever...
Hates me.

I'm a Horrible Person

Talking behinds someones back
Saying cruel things
Being a Ass in general

Fuck Yep, so now i've become what I least wanted to come.
ive become what made me ever even think of suicide in the first place.
Why did i when i know so much about it already?
Oh well, I will forgive myself when my conscience has settled...
It may be awhile

IHateSleep

ARG! i hate sleep so much!
my dreams have just kept getting realer and its scary. Stupid mind trying to scare me.