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What do you do when you fuck up so bad that only talking to your love will
cheer you up but your love refuses to talk to you. Well you could try such things to relieve stress
such as:
Cutting
Drugs
Smokes

Or you could do my way, think of your worst and sadist memory ever and just
cry. Think of that memory and replace it with what ever is bugging you.
mind you then whatever is bugging you just swells up inside you until it
rips apart your mind from the inside out.

Well that's about all I'm willing to share,
basically i fucked up and now I'm trying to fix it.